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Sharon, I am so sorry. There just aren't words, but yours are so moving and I'm sending much love. ❤️

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Thankyou Jennie ❤️‍🩹

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Your memories of your brother touched me, Sharon. Those anniversaries must be so tough.

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Thanks Wendy .. couldn't come back yesterday .. tough couple of days - worse than I anticipated really 😢

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Hope it’s easing a bit, Sharon. Grief is so unpredictable. x

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I'm on the train heading to London for a nice bit of work tomorrow and squeezing in a couple of drinks with friends so I'm a lot better today .. thankyou xx

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I cannot even begin to comprehend how difficult this is for you . It’s hard enough coping with the death of a parent, in my case , both parents , but I think suicide is somehow more personal and painful for all concerned. Your words really touched me .

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Thankyou Gaynor .. it is all the unanswered questions that stop me more in my tracks with Jay's death than any other deaths I've experienced 🥺

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Grief is hard, really hard, although I agree suicide grief is on a different level.

I lost my Dad to suicide and for me all the unanswered questions and if onlys race around my head, still 10 years on.

To be able to write down your thoughts is amazing Sharon, it took me 5 years before I was comfortable to share my story; that element of shame (or even embarrassment) when people found out; friends that had lost parents through illness such as cancer or heart failure, whereas my Dad chose to take his own life, and could quite possibly still be with us today if he chose a different path. I know that’s not the case and mental health is the biggest contributor to suicide, however it took me such a long time to come to terms with this.

It doesn’t get any easier, you just learn to deal with it a little better each year. There are still triggers, such as birthdays although the big one for me is the week leading up to his anniversary I find the hardest 🤎

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I'm so sorry to hear this about your Dad, Sonya. I can totally relate to your feelings too. I know i couldn't write anything on the anniversary like you. Somehow, his birthday seems a bit more celebratory in a way. I don't know 💔

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Sending love. It really doesn’t get easier, you just learn to live around the grief but even years later that grief can be triggered by the smallest of memories as you say. Well done for sharing the raw emotions, hope it helped in some way. x

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Thanks for being a good friend, Annette. Your messages and support always helps xx

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Beautiful words of a struggling sister 💔

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Thanks so much Kara ❤️‍🩹

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Sharon, there are no words I can say to you to ease your heartache so all I can do is send you my warmest wishes that it will settle for you somewhat.it will never go away , there is no point fooling ourselves but just think of how your brother Terry would want you to feel now perhaps,

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Thats very kind of you Larissa .. thankyou. Although you have given me a bit of laugh and lit me up. Terry is the tortoise ... my brother is Jay 😆 🐢 I needed that today 😍🤣

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Oh Crikey!! Terry would want you to eat more lettuce perhaps!

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Thank you for sharing this, Sharon. Truly. And thank you for the wonderful Terry tortoise anecdote too. X

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Thankyou .. I didn't have a choice .. had to write something today weirdly. Terry is remembered ever the more fondly because of Jay's hilarious take off 😂 🐢

I didn't know you were on here .. just subscribed xx

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